I have a hard time answering the question "what do I want?" This is a struggle I've been having for as long as I can remember. I'm pretty good at achieving my goals once they are set, it's just that once I get down past the superficial stuff, I get stuck.
There is a wonderful independent film called "Mr. Nobody". There is one scene where the main character Nemo, as a little boy, is in the bakery. He has only enough money to purchase one treat, and is having difficulty deciding if he wants the cake or the cookie. He explains that the future is not written. We have infinite options as long as a choice is not made, but once we choose we are stuck with the choice so we must choose wisely. Then, he leaves the bakery without buying anything.
This is kind of what I feel like at times-like there are infinite possibilities but since the clock is ticking, I must choose wisely because I would not be able to go back and correct things. Of course, this is all a load of horse shit.
I have a few passions at this moment in time, that I could realistically choose as my next career. 1) I have a passion for marketing, with quite a bit of experience and expertise in the field. I lack, however, formal certification aka a college degree. 2) I also have a passion for graphic design, integrating web development. Although I do not have all the technical knowledge I would need to flourish in this field, I'm smart and I learn quickly. 3) I have substantial knowledge, experience, expertise, talent, etc. in the martial arts and working out but my heart isn't in it at the moment. I'm good at it, yes, but I feel like I would be limiting myself and the successes that I can attain if I choose to pursue this field. 4) Then there is writing and music. Writing, I'm decent at. Music, I have the passion but not the knowledge nor the technical skills at. There are other things on my horizon, but these are the main things occupying my interest at this moment.
The illusion that I've tricked myself into believing is that I can only choose one. I realize that for every day that I'm stuck in procrastination is another day that I've allowed to pass by without taking a step towards ANY of these goals that I claim I have. Who said that I can't pursue all of my passions at the same time?
So today, I am taking advantage of my time. I have eyes, ears, hands, a brain, and I have all the interest in the world to learn and accomplish new things. I'm researching online. I'm downloading ebooks. I'm perusing magazines. There's a plethora of information out there on how to do stuff. There are no limits to what I can do except for the ones that I place upon myself.
Today is my day. Tomorrow is always a day away, and as long as I keep things for tomorrow, I will never do them. If I say TODAY I will do them, then when I wake up in the morning the next day, it will once again become today.