Monday, December 23, 2013

Frozen

The signals are mixed
The lies and the tricks
Blew away my last breath of air
Suffocate slowly
Quietly weep
Trying somehow to just disappear

Your final glance
I don't stand a chance
The abyss which lays before my feet
Torn all apart
My broken heart
A battle plan failed that leaves no retreat

Stuck in my web
Of fear, hate and dread
Destined only for what fate will allow
How did we get here
T'was too much to bear
Not like it makes a difference now


Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Something left

The creaking, cracking, sound of my heart scratching shattering into a million pieces fallen upon deaf ears lost into the abyss of all that has been forgotten forever hidden never to be thought of, brought up, can't help but shut up....

There was a day I thought I'd fly so free so high so light so softly spoken whispers of a kiss I never missed your lips my ear the words I'll never hear all I fought no courage to say "I love you" as you fade away...

The darkness envelops all the light I see, swallow hard, seems so hollow the path that leads before me behind me leaves the broken trail of dreams and ashes, dust and dusk nothing special left but rust cannot feel anymore trust, all is what lays now in the darkness...

Tuesday, August 20, 2013

The hourglass

A friend of mine got into a crazy car accident yesterday. He could have died but fortunately he is alright. 

Makes you stop and think how precious life is.  Make the most of your time here, be kind to others, do the things you have been putting off. Tell the people you care about how you feel about them. Cuz you never know how much time you really have. 

Tuesday, August 13, 2013

Defeated.

Sat in the corner hiding from the light
Trying to keep silent, still and out of sight
Licking my wounds and nursing my pride
Cover the face of ugliness inside

I hear your voice clearly, repeating those words
Words left unspoken and words left unheard
Anguish and torment rips at my core
The devil and angel are keeping my score

It wasn't you, it was me all along
Refused to confess all I've done wrong
Now I must sleep in this bed I have made
If I repented, would you have stayed?

Thursday, August 8, 2013

Lost soul

Heart is broken
Words unspoken
The hurt seeps out
Can't contain
Gone insane
Infected by doubt
Was it real
What I feel
Crippled by grief
Lost all hope
End of the rope
Trembling brown dead leaf 

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Regret

Ever wonder what you might have had
Reflections of smiles from the past
Locked up through the looking glass
Love that slipped beyond your grasp

Ever burned so deep inside
The deepest thoughts from which you hide
The longing of an endless fire
Consumed by this unquenched desire

All the lies and all the faces
Frozen smiles and cold embraces
Shattered image of self erased
Hidden beyond a veil of lace 

Wednesday, July 17, 2013

Ocean fish

Jumped into the ocean so the roar of crashing waves would drown out my sorrows
Didn't realize the ocean has been crying for generations
Her sadness overwhelmed me and swallowed me whole

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

Misplaced affection

When one smile can light up my world and you don't even know it 
And your frown to me is worst than death but I'm afraid to show it
Buried deep under all those years the torment starts to fade
The only color left of me the deepest darkest shade
Embers settle the cold will nest in the recess of my bones 
Every action over analyzed leaves a soul-less drone
Affection never afforded may have been good enough to some 
Tomorrow is the yesterdays always destined to come

Saturday, June 15, 2013

Disillusion

I was so sad when you left
And so sad when you came
No matter what happened
I still felt the same

I looked in the future
I looked in the past
I looked in the mirror
To reveal a mask

Was it something you said?
Was it something undone?
The stark realization
That I am the one

Beyond all promise
Beyond all dreams
Nothing is ever
Just as it seems

Release

A whisper of hope
Cavernous rift
Torn bits I clung to
Mind all amiss
Whirlwinds and whirlwinds
I did not know
False evidence appears real
If I release
I will fall and fall
Forever is a long time
To be trapped in a bind