Friday, July 18, 2014

Goodbye

I wrote this a few days ago. It doesn't feel quite finished but I can't seem to complete it so here it is:

Goodbye to my anger
Goodbye to my hurt
Goodbye to all my urge to assert
So long desperation
I've had it with you
So long to the want of all that you do
I'm closing this chapter
Your story is whack
I've had it; the weight of the world's on my back
There's been no resolution
Despite all the years
We've stumbled through bruises
Through blood, sweat, and tears
Enough is enough
I've thrown in the towel
I can't take anymore of your dangerous scowl
So today is the day
I lay it all to rest
Blame if you must but I did my best




Tuesday, July 15, 2014

The Descent of Hope

Embers fades as the growing light of dawn casts a shadow on the hopes that I've held onto
Stark realizations, stabbing dagger through the heart of whispers of promises of tomorrow which will never come
The voice of reason, a soothing deep timbre which lulls me to inaction
"Stop!" She says, "accept what has been and what will never be" as a single glistening tear collides with my entire universe
Desperation: Is it a gift or a curse?
All I know is that you are not here and cannot answer this question which burns so deeply in my soul.
What could we have been if only we were given the time to explore...? How high could I have flown had my wings not been clipped? How far can I run would I have not been bound by this obligation?
Some things we will never know.
Time may heal but the scars will always show.

Monday, July 14, 2014

I Cry

I cry for the day I cry for the night
For broken wings which can't take flight
I cry for the lack of end in sight
I cry out in pain with all my might
But for you I smile.

I cry for the bees I cry for the birds
I cry for bitter spoken angry words
I cry for music that is left unheard
But for you I smile.

I cry for all the wars still waging
I cry from the youth who are disengaging
I cry for all above ground raging
But for you I smile.

I ache in my soul, my heavy heart frowns
I cry when the whole world is turned upside down
I cry in my loneliness without a sound
But for you I smile.

All my words still left unspoken
The want inside me has awoken
Empty shell inside is broken
But for you I smile.

Tuesday, July 8, 2014

Loss

When you lose something important but you don't know its importance, it doesn't bother you. When you lose something and you know the exact magnitude of the loss, it is pure torture. Ignorance is bliss. I am in torture. But I would choose torture over forgetting to try to get over you because the imprints you have left on me, I'll cherish forever.